This past weekend I had the absolutely pleasure of going back to Cambridge, England, where my family lived for two years when I was 8 years old. It was the first time I had been back since we moved away 11 years ago. The strange feeling of flashbacks mixed with pure joy mixed with this weird sensation of feeling like I was living in a dream truly is just indescribable. As I was walking through the streets that I had walked through 11 years before as a little girl, I could not stop smiling and thanking God for His countless blessings and for bringing me back full circle to where I lived when my biggest worry was being made fun of for my American accent.
It’s funny how every tiny problem always seems like such a huge deal at the time. And then, when we look back, we recognize that God holds all time and eternity in the palm of His hand. A tweet that I read this morning put it perfectly: You don’t need to know what tomorrow holds. All you need to know is the One who holds tomorrow.
My dear brothers and sisters, we live in a time period where worry and planning have taken over the pleasurable, day-to-day blessings that are so small and so beautiful. I have the honor of getting to spend my Thursday afternoons at a school in a city outside London with 120 students who are all diagnosed with some form of autism. One little girl, named Treasure, drew me a picture on my first day of class of four little hearts in the middle of the page. When I asked her why she drew it for me, she said “Simple. Cause I love you.” And all I could think about in that moment was Jesus.
That is the exact response that I believe He would say to us if we were to ask him questions about our future, about what we should do, who we should be, what graduate school we should go to, how we will ever possibly be able to pay off our student loans, the list goes on and on. I really believe that He would just hold us in His arms, smile and say “It’s simple Sarah. I love you.” These worries are microscopic at most when it comes to the God who created everything that was and is and is to come. He holds your heart and that, my friends, is a beautiful thing.
It really is amazing the perspective you can gain from going back to a place where you lived as a young child and haven’t been back to since. In a way, it just felt so strange to be walking around the same place but 11 years later, with more than half of my life having been passed by since then. But in a truly beautiful and incredible way it just made me feel so much love from Jesus in a way that I have never felt before. My roommate’s binder has Exodus 14:14 written on it and I wish we could constantly remind ourselves of this over and over again when worry seems to creep into our lives: “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Thank You, Jesus, for your countless blessings that you pour out on our lives day after day, hour after hour. We are undeserving and we are in love with You. Save us, Savior of the world, for by Your cross and resurrection, You have set us free.
- Sarah Robison (London Undergraduate Program, Fall 2014)
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